saturday, the 13th.

my interview with Phil Bensen (www.myspace.com/philbensen) is up on Hot Vibes Magazine's website. Please go check it out. It is not labeled with my name, just know that I did the interview =] heres the link : www.hotvibes.com

in other news, i began school a couple weeks ago and it's back to the same grind, as usual. i'm sending in my first article assignment back to my editor for The Torch, my school's newspaper, tonight. i'm going to be turning 19 at the end of the month. i need to do laundry and clean my room. i'm listening to coldplay.


i want to leave new york so bad. at least just get in a car and drive away for a few hours. i need civilization to disappear for just a few human seconds. it's easier to collect the pieces of myself if there's no one else to distract me. sorry for the ramble, my dear blog, but that's what you're here for.

other upcoming events, besides my day of birth, is this friday's photoshoot with the band. check 'em out: www.myspace.com/fallofthealbatross and hopefully daniel radcliffe.

my theory.

i can honestly say that i don't thrive on music or movies or art. i thrive on life and every aspect of it: friendships, love, experience. i've only just begun to notice how robotic everyone around me really is. they all listen to the same music, watch the same tv shows, rave about the latest fashion trend. although, don't get me wrong, i definitely get in on that, too. i'm guilty of all the things i'm about to mention but now i just think that there's way more to life than that. if we're stuck trying to discover new music but always remain in the same genre, what are we really trying to discover? if we watch the same tv shows and same generic movies, how are we really still being entertained? if we go out and buy the same clothes and dress the same way as everyone else, are we really any better than the people we critize for being so bland? no, we're not. from the way i see it, we all want to be different in some way or another, but we all end up in a mold anyway. we want to be edgy, so you do drugs. half the world does drugs. you want to be pure, half the world is pure. you want to scream and be obnoxious, well guess what? there are so many more people JUST LIKE YOU. if we stopped concentrating on what we do, who we want to impress, and what we have been MOLDED to act, we'd be happier people. we'd be healthier people. we'd be real 'individuals'. we wouldn't look at the next person's jeans and envy it. we wouldn't go to a concert because EVERYONE is going to be there, but you.


...and then i wake up.